Well I'm a few minutes late but Kawika has been gone a month. I can't even comprehend that. How does time fly by like this. I have two weeks of classes left and then depending on work I should be home within three weeks and I would have been popping next door to see his precious smile and he isn't there anymore. Now I'm going to be going over to say hey to his ashes and give his parents lots of hugs. I probably wont be able to keep myself from crying, it's going to be so hard to face the reality that he really is gone. I just can't comprehend it, how is this amazing guy not alive anymore? My mom spent Thanksgiving with Lorna and Dave and I talked to Lorna on the phone and she just made me cry because they are all such great people and I love them and this really sucks. Why do drug addicts and pedophiles and killers and just horrible people get to live when somebody like Kawika has to be taken away from us? He literally had the best smile in the world and I can't believe I'll never see it again! Aside from that I am so happy that this is the last week of this semester before finals. I'm so burnt out from school and having this past week off was so good for me because I needed to recharge my batteries but yeah now I need to just get this semester done with. I have four essays to revise and turn in (one due Tuesday, the rest Thursday). Other than that this shouldn't be too hard of a week, we're just wrapping things up and getting out of here. If anything, the hardest part of the week will be the fact that I need to read another book (Frankenstein) because I need it for a paper that counts as my final for Eng 352. Next week will suck because I normally don't have to take finals but I have four this semester plus that said paper, and hopefully I can do my midterm for that independent study class as well. We'll see. I looked up more jobs in publishing today and they are still out there and I so wish I was just done so that I could be making money rather than freaking out because I have none.
Hmm well I better get back to my homework :-/
Love and Kisses,
KABO
