Goals vs What Really Happened (I failed a lot!)

So, over the summer, prior to the semester starting, I drafted two different sets of goals for myself. I originally was going to post those goals and then go back to edit them at the culmination of the semester/year, but I didn't. So, here are the two lists and how I will move forward with them.

1st Semester Goals:

1. 4.0 GPA
1. So.... this one is my biggest disappointment. I received a 95% in my Anatomy and Physiology II Honors class. So, yay to 4.0 in that class. In my Health Assessments class (Nur 112, 3 credits) I earned 963/1000 points, aka a 96%. Once again, 4.0 in that class!!! Finally in my 6 credit, Fundamentals of Nursing class I earned 919.16/1000 points. An A is 920 points. So, at the end of the day I missed my A by 0.84 points. That isn't even one full test question wrong. I am beyond devestated. I appealed the grade, and while I have not heard back on the ruling (I should at some point today), I am 99.999999999% sure that I will still be getting the B and have just pissed off the faculty for the things I said (I told them that a certain policy that allows some people 5 points extra credit, but not people like me who scored in the top 9% of the nation, was unethical and they completely did not see why I feel that way. Oh well). I'm mad at myself, but at the same time, I took on a lot more this semester than most of my classmates and I should still be happy about my performance. Plus, it really makes me motivated to get the A next semester (even though everyone says it is impossible). 
2. Weekly Blog Post
1. So, yea, any of you who have been following my blog know that I failed miserably at this. It may not seem like it, but the blog posts really do take a lot of time. I have to think of a topic and then try to fit in writing between being a mom and being a nursing student. Not easy. I do want to make this a goal for next semester though. I do want to work on my writing. I love writing, it relaxes me, I need to find the time to practice my skill. One day I still plan on being an author, and the only way to do that is to always be writing. So, I failed at this goal this semester, but I am going to attempt it next. Also, if anyone wants to suggest topics to write then I'd love to explore different things with you all! 
3. Weekly Scholarship Application 
1. Yea, I think I did one scholarship app all semester and it was one of the random drawing ones that you don't really have to do anything for. So, here I failed myself miserably. The problem with scholarships is they are extremely time consuming. So, I think that maybe next semester I will plan on one a month, and plan on it being a quality application. 
4. Run (step up schedule to 40 miles a week)
1. I miss running. It used to be my time to clear my head and feel calm. I am not a calm person, I am pretty damned high strung. I need to relax a minute. Unfortunately I didn't even run more than one mile all semester. This is probably one of my biggest regrets. I need to run or at least work out every day. I need to stop making excuses and make time for exercise. So, I will try to attempt this same step up plan next semester. 
5. Read 1 book a month. 
1. Haha, yea with the hundreds of pages we usually had to read each week between my three classes I most definitely did not find time to read anything for pleasure. On top of that, Kiera was sleeping in bed with me every night and insisted on cuddling, which makes holding a book impossible. I know next semester will be miserable when it comes to reading as well, but I am going to attempt this same goal. Cross your fingers that I can put aside a half hour every night to read. 
6. Honors project schedule 
1. So, this one is both a win and a failure. I succeeding in this goal because I completed my poster and it actually won the poster competition for the school. Go me. I failed because I did not follow the schedule that I intended to and then had to rush to put everything together (the weekend before two nursing exams). Perhaps, if I had followed the schedule correctly I would have been able to turn in something even better. There were MANY things I know could be improved. Next semester I am NOT completing an honors project, but God willing, 3rd semester of nursing school I'll be in the nursing honors society and will be doing an honor project again then. 
7. Scrapbook weekly updates
1. So, last year I took all of Kiera's projects and either scanned or photographed them and created a shutterfly album. I also added her extracuricular activities (like birthday parties and her dance program) and made like a yearbook thing for her. My plan was to stay way more on top of her projects this semester (updates every 2 weeks). I actually am even more behind than last year. So, my goal for today is to catch up on all the projects from her two schools today and then hopefully next semester I'll do a better job on this. 

End of 2017 Goals

1. Be in a "fit" shape
1. Well, I tried this at the start of the semester. Rachel and I worked out three days a week at the school for like three weeks. I got three days into a yoga 30 day challenge. Then everything fell apart for me. So, like the running thing, I really just need to find that time to exercise and get my body back to how I like looking. I also need to work on my diet, because yea, it is total shit, which doesn't help anything. So, I will be starting this goal over and intend to follow it through to the summer. I want to ring in 31 looking good and not hating myself for letting myself go. Now that Heather has moved in, we have discussed going to the gym together and getting back to how we looked when we lived in NYC and walked everywhere (I was like 120 back then!)
2. Find a new job
1. So, this isn't really a fail. I decided, along with my parents, that my job would be to be a student and a mother. I have no idea how people do a job on top of being a parent in nursing school. I don't plan on working next semester either. Hopefully over the summer I can get a job and work a lot and then next year work a few hours here and there. 
3. Settle/get money back from lawyer. 
1. My lawyer from my custody battle still has almost 1200 dollars of mine, but I keep forgetting to call them back. The one time I attempted to get in touch with him this year his office said they needed to mail me something, but nothing ever came. 1200 dollars would cover a lot of bills so I really do need to get this accomplished. Now that it is on my mind, I think I will try again today. Wish me luck! 
4. No more than 2 hours a day or 8 hours a week of TV. 
1. I actually did this for the most part. Some days I needed to relax or mom wanted to hang out so we watched the television, but I really didn't spend that much time watching things for myself this semester. I am going to call this a win and I will continue next semester in trying to cut back and do other things to relax. 
5. Find volunteer opportunities
1. Yet another goal that I failed and another goal that I need to work on for the future. Not only is volunteering good for the community, but it's good for the soul  and it's good for my resume. So, I am going to try and do at least one volunteer event in the next few months. 
6. In bed by 8pm, up by 4am. 
1. So my big idea was I could wake up early and get things done and be super fresh for the day by the time class started at 8:30. This didn't even happen once (well I guess it did on days with 6am clinicals, but that doesn't count). I will not be enlisting in this goal again, it was ridiculous. 
7. Stay on top of daily chores. 
1. So, I did this half way. Some days I was really good about making my bed or cleaning up my laundry off the floor. Other days I ignored my dishes because I just didn't have time or didn't even remember to clean the dog pen. 
8. Stop phone addiction
1. I'm going to give myself a win on this. I really didn't fall into the hours of time wasted on my phone that I have in the past. I could still improve on this and I know I will do even better next semester/year. 
9. Keep room orderly
1. So, this didn't really happen, but mostly because my room isn't completed and therefore I don't have enough room for everything to have its own place. For instance, my bookshelf is way too small so it is so it is overly full and I have four other boxes of books strewn about my room. I also bought a cheap dresser while I wait for my custom-made bed to get finished and two of the drawers wont open so now instead of things being neatly place, the other four drawers are overflowing with clothes I cant fit anywhere else. My desk is also just not wide enough for everything I have on it. So, obviously I have a lot of excises, but I am going to try harder despite the obstacles next semester. 
10. Be more involved in school
1. Yes, one I def win! I was elected to student council as the President of my nursing class, so I would say that is involved enough. 

Okay, so yea, I am a big time failure with my goals. While you can see there are a couple that I will throw out, most of them I am just going to refresh for the next 6 months. Hopefully, I will have much better results next time I attempt this list.