George hasn't been feeling too great lately, I think his back is hurting him which makes me sad, but I've been trying to take really good care of him so hopefully he'll get better, or at least not get any worse. He's sitting on my lap like a little angel and it's so funny because sometimes I forget he's there because he's just so good. I need to go buy him some doggie aspirin but I only made seven dollars at work yesterday and I got cut for tomorrow and let's face it I will probably get sent home early Saturday morning because the hostess always gets cut first and then we'll see how it is waitressing Saturday night but unless I make a ton of tips I'll be even more screwed with my bills this month, ugh! I'm already $135 out of money I have been putting aside, I don't have much more in case I don't make much in the next week or two. I really wanted to get christmas gifts and stuff but I don't know what I'll be able to afford :(
As far as my restaurant goes, lately I wonder if we'll end up closing down. People who come in love the food, that's not the issue, the problem is that we have so few people coming in, I don't see how it's possible that we can afford it. On top of that people I work with are CONSTANTLY eating the food and drinking the alcohol without paying for it. I can't imagine how much that is costing the restaurant. Like the one time I drank after work with everyone I asked chef how much I owed him and he was like nothing, ummm they gave me a lot to drink, how is it that they didn't charge me, nor anyone there? Obviously I don't want us to close down because then I'd be out of a job but unless there are some big changes, mostly a huge influx of customers then I don't see how we will make it in this horrible economy. It's just another reason I can't wait to freaking graduate, I want to get into a job that is more stable, where my paying my bills doesn't depend on if people come in to buy a product I'm selling or not. 2.13 an hour sucks, but it sucks even more when I get one table for a whole night and only make 7 dollars. That isn't even minimum wage, totally not fair!
I'm also getting really tired of how I'm treated at work, mostly just by my manager. Like here's the deal, I may be an airhead but I'm not some stupid bimbo that people can treat like some sex object or something! I think I probably got more respect from my manager at Red Rock who straight up pulled up my dress one day or would talk about mine and others' appearance. Like as a cocktail waitress you know part of your job is to look hot and sexy and just be beautiful. You don't have to have much brains to serve drinks. As a waitress I wear long black pants, a large white button up shirt, an apron, and black sneakers. There really isn't anything sexy about my job. People don't care about me, they care about their conversations and their food, I'm just someone they have to deal with to get what their little tummys desire. When I hostess of course I'm supposed to look good, but it's still something different than a cocktail waitress. I'm the first person people see when they walk in the door so I have to look good but I don't have to look sexy and provocative. SO all that being said, it really annoys me how my manager constantly talks to me as if I'm some sex object. Like always saying I need to smile cus I'm prettier that way and talking about "Oh we need to only put Vegas on the door so more people will come in!" and stuff like that, it's so freaking frustrating! Like maybe if he talked to all the girls like that it wouldn't bother me so much but as far as I noticed he only reserves those kinds of comments for me. The worst part is this whole thing with one of the waiters lately. Apparently Steve has it in his little mind that I'm trying to get with this guy or something and makes comments about me "shagging" him and trying to "get it" and it's just so inappropriate! Like there are so many reasons why I wouldn't go after this server. First and foremost I MET HIS GIRLFRIEND! I'm sorry but last time I checked I'm not a slut so no I wouldn't ever go after a guy who I know is taken, that's just so trashy. Second, we work together, I don't need any drama or awkwardness, especially in such a small restaurant! And thirdly, ummm I don't even want a boyfriend right now because I need to focus on my own life and getting through the next few months and I'm not the kind of person who is just going to hook up with some guy just for the hell of it, if I wanted to be with something they would have to work their asses off and prove to me they were worth my time. I'm not and never will be looking for a hit it and quit it thing or a fuck buddy or whatever the fuck Steve thinks is going on. It's really sad that he can't even think that I'm just friendly with this waiter, I mean I don't even talk to the guy outside of work so seriously there isn't even any precedence to his thoughts!
Ok well my sleep schedule got toally fucked up this week and I need to get back to my homework and maybe take a nap before class at noon, so I better get off here, but I just wanted to get all that off my chest because it's really been bothering me.
Love and Kisses,
KABO
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