I chopped off the tip of my finger!!!!!!

So last night I was so tired but I COULD NOT SLEEP! It sucks so much to be exhausted and not able to sleep but it sucks even more when you have somewhere to be at 7am. Needless to say I was out of it this morning when I went to work. Luckily I bought a Rockstar last night so I had that on my side, only problem is that it made me feel sick.  First I didn't feel it, I just felt a bit less exhausted. Then I felt it starting to make me hyper and I was super talkative and whatnot with my coworkers. Then it eventually started making me feel super shaky and my heart was beating like crazy. By the time my shift ended at 2pm I was feeling like I was going to pass out and it was bad.  The worst part of all of this was that I ended up accidentally cutting a chunk of my finger almost all the way off while trying to get some fresh bread for my table. It hurt and it still hurts and it hurt a lot earlier because I accidentally slammed it in the door this evening. Hmm that all sounded really random...please just remember I've been up since 730 am on FRIDAY! I really need to go to sleep but I want to shower first so I'll be up for at least another half hour.


I got to see my bff Joshy today and his gf.  He cat had kittens and they are so precious! There is one that is like in love with Josh, it was pretty cute.  It really sucks that he doesn't live here anymore but thank God she does cus at least that gives him a good reason to come into town often. She's coming over on Monday for some vegetarian chili on Monday, YAY! I wasn't too fond of her when I first met her but I think my vision was somewhat clouded by people around me. These days I do see the good person that Josh sees, but I'm glad that he is at least still taking things slow with her (as in they didn't fall in love and get engaged like some people do within a few months which is kinda crazy).

So lately I have been thinking about seeing a counselor. It's just that I have gone through a lot in my life and recently I realized how much I hold onto what I lost and how my life changed when I got sick.  I have been working so hard to get back to being a super happy and focused person like I was before I went blind but it's so hard to do that when I still feel sick all the time and I find myself having limitations that I never had before. I know what I want from my life and maybe going to someone will help me get to that place. Not sure that I am going to do it for sure but my mom has been bugging me for years about it and maybe it's time to listen (especially so that I can tell her she was wrong if it doesn't help lol).

Well tomorrow is going to be full of homework and totally boring but hopefully I can sleep so that at least it will be kinda bearable. 

Love and kisses,
KABO