So part two of the whole racism thing- I got an email back from the Chancellors office and have been asked to meet on a regular basis with them and try to make Ole Miss a better place for all students. I honestly don't know how to take the response. Is it just a polite way to shut me up and not worry about the white student population? Or is it an honest request to bring a young mind with fresh ideas in to really make a difference? Once I meet with them for the first time I will make sure to post about it. Who know, maybe this blog that started out to just be a daily recap of my life for my friends and family to follow will eventually turn into a discussion on the serious topic of racism in today's colleges.  Only time will tell.

To further the topic of the incident yesterday, I did some research later in the evening because I was just so flabbergasted at the idea that some company would even manufacture such a horrible and racist product! As it turns out, it's a christian company and the shirt is supposed to mean something about being saved from the slavery of sins or some weird shit like that. Looking at all the "ex" shirts they have they are all very offensive to groups of people and just fucked up in general.  Like a shirt that says "ex-cutter" ummm cutting is a very serious mental thing that people struggle with, I have a friend who was a cutter and she has only told a few people about it, I can't imagine how she would feel if she saw someone walking around with a shirt that said "ex-cutter" as if it was something to be proud of once having done. There's also a shirt that says "ex-sinner" which doesn't even make sense because people sin every day on accident and to wear a shirt like that is basically being a hypocrite.  After being disgusted with the "christian" shirts I decided to look and see what other people's reactions were. One that really stood out to me was a girl who identified herself as African-American and a wearer of the "ex-slave" shirt who said she gets so many bad looks when she wears the shirt, even at christian conventions she attends. She said that she is always has to explain that it doesn't me slavery in a historical sense and blah blah blah. What got me about her post was that it 1)Said that even some pastors didn't really like the shirt and 2)said that she will have random black people see her and be like "hell yeah!"  I think that the second thing is all that matters, the shirt may mean something to the company that produces it but the perceived meaning is all that actually matters.  The girl I saw on campus may have bought that shirt because she believes in the weird christian meaning that was associated with it, but she also may have been one of the blacks that see it and go "hell yeah!" trying to stick it to the "white man."  Finding the website does not change my opinion of the matter, in fact I think it probably helps to solidify it more. 

So outside of that whole issue my life has been pretty basic.  I was supposed to work last night but my boss made me take the night off because they were too slow. I really hope that doesn't happen often because I'm only scheduled three days a week and I really need the money but I understand him not having everyone come in because then it would be like the last two days I worked and made no money because I only had one or two tables (in total five people both nights).

Classes have been going well, haven't really done much but I know that this semester is going to be very busy. I have so many papers to write and quizzes and midterms and agh!

Now I know a lot of people wont believe this but the most amazing thing happened. At around 1:30/2 am there was a lot of noise from my neighbors (like a loud truck or something) and possibly a plane (!?!) flying nearby but it was freaking out my puppy, then out of nowhere he starts barking like crazy at the window to my bedroom which freaked me out. I sleep with one of my Poppy's favorite shirts so when I was nervous I grabbed it and said, "Keep me safe please" and all of a sudden, so sudden I almost missed it, I could smell my Poppy there with me. It was as if he was saying that he heard me and was watching over me always. It was pretty magical and amazing.

Well I think that's all for now. Check back tomorrow for more.

Love and Kisses,
KABO